Tuesday Thoughts

Tuesday, February 25, 2014


Do you ever have those days where you wake up and you just don’t feel like yourself? Like you get dressed, roll through your day, and go through the motions but you almost feel like you’re playing the lead in someone else’s life? Like you’re not really living your life for you, but for other people?

Sometimes I feel like this, and today has been one of those times. And I think I know why.

As a people pleaser, I tend to have this ridiculous and unrealistic worldview that everyone should get along and everyone should always be perfectly happy. I tend to put others above myself almost all the time to ensure this peace and while this may seem altruistic, it really has become a major pain in my ass. (Sorry for the language, like I said, I’m not feeling like myself today.) I will bend over backwards for people to make sure that they’re happy and satisfied even if I’m suffering because of it. It doesn’t matter how many times they drag me through the dirt and spit on my face after I’ve done all that I could for them, I continue to try to preserve these clearly toxic and broken relationships. I guess I somehow hold out hope that things will be different. Deep down in my heart I want things to be different and I blindly believe that if I sacrifice my happiness for theirs, then maybe things will improve.

Well, needless to say, I’m tired. I’m sick and tired. And I’m sick and tired of being sick and tired.

So I’ve been re-evaluating some of the friendships and connections I’ve made in the past few years and I’ve begun to realize that it’s time to cut ties with these people. I no longer want to try to salvage things. I no longer want to please them. I no longer want to give up my life and my happiness for someone who adds no value to either of those things.

And I think it’s about time.

Esquites - Mexican Street Corn Salad

Friday, February 21, 2014

The other night I was really in the mood for tacos but I couldn't think of a good side to go with them. I've gotten tired of just doing beans and rice or chips and salsa on the side and wanted something new and different. So after doing a little searching I found this recipe for Esquites or Mexican Street Corn Salad. I'm sure the best time to make this one would be in the summer when you can get fresh corn, but since I had a few cans of whole kernel corn and all the other ingredients on hand, I figured I'd give it a shot. The verdict? SO worth it. And it was super easy to throw together.

This recipe comes from Serious Eats and believe me you won't be disappointed.


Esquites (Mexican Street Corn Salad)

2 tablespoons vegetable oil
4 ears fresh corn, shucked, kernels removed (about 3 cups fresh corn kernels)
Kosher salt
2 tablespoons mayonnaise
2 ounces feta or cotija cheese, finely crumbled
1/2 cup finely sliced scallion greens
1/2 cup fresh cilantro leaves, finely chopped
1 jalapeño pepper, seeded and stemmed, finely chopped
1 to 2 medium cloves garlic, pressed or minced on a microplane grater (about 1 to 2 teaspoons)
1 tablespoon fresh juice from 1 lime
Chili powder or hot chili flakes, to taste

Heat oil in a large non-stick skillet or wok over high heat until shimmering. Add corn kernels, season to taste with salt, toss once or twice, and cook without moving until charred on one side, about 2 minutes. Toss corn, stir, and repeat until charred on second side, about 2 minutes longer. Continue tossing and charring until well charred all over, about 10 minutes total. Transfer to a large bowl.

Add mayonnaise, cheese, scallions, cilantro, jalapeño, garlic, lime juice, and chili powder and toss to combine. Taste and adjust seasoning with salt and more chili powder to taste. Serve immediately.

The Long Weekend

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

I'm not sure how everyone else's week has been going but mine has been slowww. After the long weekend, I've had a really hard time getting back into the swing of things and getting back up to speed on my projects at work. Being off for four and a half days was a blessing at the time but it completely messed up my work ethic.

I took a half day on Wednesday to do a little early birthday celebrating with my Mom. Her birthday was on Saturday but I wanted to take her out for a girl's day before winter dumped another big one on us. We left work early, went to lunch at a cute little spot near my house and then drove over to the eastern shore to do a little shopping at the outlets. Then we met up with my best friend Katie for pedicures and dinner. Both were incredibly luxurious. We went to dinner at this place called Annie's and stuffed ourselves with all kinds of delicous food. And after we were way too full, we indulged a little more and got two desserts to celebrate the occasion. It was way too much but it was fun nonetheless.

Mama with her brownie sundae.

When we left Annie's, the snow had started to fall and although it was a little slick driving home we made it back safely. The storm didn't let up for two days and my work was closed for the rest of the week. I honestly can't remember exactly how much we got but I know it was more than a foot. It kept changing back and forth from dry to wet so it was hard to get a good total since the slush kind of melted everything. It was probably the messiest storm I've seen in a while especially when the temps dropped again and froze everything into huge chunks of ice. Yuck.

Mike had off on Thursday but had to go in on Friday. We got a lot of housework accomplished during the break and even walked out to the grocery store to grab a movie (and the liquor store for wine) after we knocked out our to-do list. Mike had also gotten me some adorable little gifts over the week leading up to Valentine's day including a Smith Island Cake which we quickly devoured after shoveling out our cars.

He was so warm from shoveling he took his coat off.

I spent almost all of Friday doing more chores around the house and prepping for our Valentine's date that night. When Mike came home, we ventured up to Towson to the Melting Pot for a huge dinner and had a wonderful time. They even gave us a complimentary champagne toast and we got to keep the glasses!

We had a quiet day Saturday and went out that night to celebrate my Mom's birthday with some of her friends. (I'm starting to realize that gluttony was the major theme this weekend.) We had a big tasty dinner at Four Seasons Grille and then went back to my parents' house for cake and ice cream. We could barely eat any since the restaurant had given my Mom a birthday dessert as well but the cake was delcious so we couldn't resist.

On Sunday, my Dad and Mike got started on some of the electrical work we needed done at our house while my Mom, her sisters, and I went to Annapolis to our favorite teahouse for lunch - once again to celebrate my Mom's birthday. She's such a special person I'd celebrate her birthday all month if I could! We had tea and scones and soup and tiny sandwiches and desserts and it was delicous. Reynold's Tavern never disappoints.

If it wasn't already hard enough jumping back into the week after all of the fun, Monday decided to throw me a fast one. I don't want to relive all of the horrors of the day but I will share one super fun moment. Picture me walking into work (late as usual on Monday) sleepy and barely functional and running into on of my overly talkative coworkers only to have her point out that there is a pair of my lacy underwear stuck to the velcro on my front pocket for all to see. It apparently got stuck there when I washed my coat on Friday and I never noticed.

Story of my freaking life.

Happy Day of Love!

Friday, February 14, 2014

First of all, have you seen the Google doodle this morning? If not, stop what you're doing and go check it out. It was by far the sweetest thing I've seen all day. I laughed and I cried and it was so touching to hear each of the stories. The "4ever Yours" one really got me. When I began clicking on the little conversation hearts, I didn't quite expect to identify with any of the stories but when I heard this one, it struck my heart. I often feel just as the man described. It's so scary to think that one day, you will lose the ones you love.

There was actually a post I saw a few months back that nailed the feeling perfectly. It described being so incredibly happy and in love but how heartbreaking that feeling can be at the same time, because you know that one day it all will end. This was the video that went along with the post.

I'm not trying to be a huge downer on Valentine's Day, it's just something that I think about a lot and the doodle this morning brought those feelings back up again. I guess it really just goes to show how important our time is with our loved ones, whether it's our significant other, our family, or our friends. It's so incredibly important to show them how much they mean to us no matter what day of the year it is.

And I honestly believe the best way to do that is with our time. We can shower them with candy, cards, and flowers every day if we wanted to but with a life so short, time is really the only thing that matters. So this evening, Mike and I are going to dinner and then back to our house for a cozy night in. We don't usually do very much for Valentine's day anyway, but simplicity kind of defines the way we do things.

I hope that you are able to spend today with the ones you love. Whether you're married, dating, or single, don't look at today as a Hallmark holiday but instead take February 14th as an opportunity to spend time with the people you hold closest to your heart.

Happy Valentine's Day!

More Family. More Friends. More Fun.

Wednesday, February 12, 2014

Over the weekend, we got to spend time with a bunch of our friends and family and my heart is so full from the wonderful experiences we had. From the moment we got home from work on Friday until our heads hit the pillow Sunday night, we didn't stop moving, but I can definitely say we enjoyed every single second.

Friday night we had our good friends Matt and Ali over for dinner, drinks, and games. We ate, we drank, we laughed, we played Cards Against Humanity, we laughed some more, and good times were had all around. Then, on Saturday night we went out with them again and a few other friends downtown to PowerPlant. Mike and I have been there many times over the last couple of years but I have to say, that night was probably the most fun I've ever had there. I'm not sure what made it so special but it was great to really let loose, dance, sing, and completely goof off. Definitely a night to remember.

We were up early the next morning to host our very first Sunday family breakfast. We made a ton of food - eggs, pancakes, bacon, sausage, fruit salad - and packed everyone into our tiny little dining room. We played some of Mike's grandmother's old vinyl records on our new turntable and listened to the Dartmouth College Glee Club (Mike's grandfather's alma mater) serenade us all morning. It was truly heartwarming to see our families sharing a meal, telling stories, and laughing together in our home.

It means so much to me that our friends and family feel comfortable at our house and it felt so good to be surrounded by so many people we love. My goal for this year was to start doing more of what we love with the people we love and I like to think that we made a pretty good attempt this weekend. Hopefully there will be many, many more like it.

Moment on a Monday

Monday, February 10, 2014

“For what it’s worth … it’s never too late, or in my case too early, to be whoever you want to be. There’s no time limit. Start whenever you want. You can change or stay the same. There are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people who have a different point of view. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you’re not, I hope you have the courage to start all over again.”

Big Jet Plane by Angus & Julia Stone on Grooveshark

Sorry for the silence

Wednesday, February 5, 2014


We've been extremely boring lately, so there just hasn't been anything interesting to chat about.  Unless, of course, you consider our adventures on the couch every night watching trashy TV shows or movies back to back interesting.  In that case, there you have it.

My to-do list keeps getting longer the more I sit, but I simply don't have the energy or motivation to do any of it. Our house is a complete wreck, I haven't cooked in almost two weeks, the laundry is piling up, and I seem to have lost track of my days. As far as I'm concerned, as long as the cat gets fed and the bills are paid, I've accomplished enough. (Wow, that sounds bad.)

Yep, it's true, I am definitely in a bit of a slump. This nasty, icy weather just does that to me. I'm so, so ready for pretty flowers, warm breezes, and sunshine that I've reached the point where I'd probably give my right arm if we could fast forward to Spring.

FORTY-TWO DAYS AND COUNTING. It can't come soon enough.

Happy Hump Day!